red riding hood

I'm on a wolf trail. I didn't know there was such a thing, or that I would be following this pathway, but I am, open and curious. The question of the predatory wolf and the wolf that is wild and runs with women are as yet two separate things, one the thing I am running towards and the other the thing I have been running from. Although not anymore. The shamanic dimensions showed me a way through my body, a safe way out or a safe way to get that predatory wolf, out. And out he remains. No pain exactly, pressure and awareness and healing, and nothing on the ECG. 

I'm weary of my relationship with the wolf. He keeps taking me by surprise and turning up in things and connected with people from my past and I'm not sure how I feel about that, even though the sentiment may have been right on at the time. Or the wolf is an animal ally for a friend of mine and what about Clarissa Pinkola Estes, why did she choose wolves to run with? At times, I have thought they were not my tribe of women, but how can that be? Or can that be? How can a woman friend of mine have an animal ally of an animal I have experienced as predatory? In the shamanic dimensions when we dance the full moon long dance, all animals for that dance put down their predatory natures. And my wolf was male. When I think of the word wolf, I think of male. And I've imagined women running with those male wolves.  I thought maybe I was one of them. But my wolf turned out to be a predator.